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Never Gonna Get Me Down No More

I asked my friends and family what verse from the christian bible gave them strength? What famous quote was a powerful affirmation to them? The response was all bible verses. I even heard from some that I didn’t think were believers, much like myself I wonder in reading the depths of the verses “whats going on in there lives that they find such solace in these beautifully uplifting verses. I remember my step mom telling me that if you truly have the Lord first in everything He wont let you have a bad, and depressing day. I remember her telling me this back in the deep depressive state and thinking to myself “well you never went through…. blah, blah, blah!” I would have the worst days, I’ve written about them. The “mean reds”, worst than the blues. Sulk days is what I call them, my husband would just support me as he could. I really honestly thought that if I could just move outta here and be somewhere else everything would be better. Grass greener on the other side comes to mind. I also recall telling someone once that if you can’t save $5 how could you ever save $500? Same principle applies. If I can’t be happy, positive and let God’s love and light shine on me here then how could it somewhere else?

I don’t have a lot of things, but I have more than some. I want so much more, but it’s mostly material and not needed. I wish for things that are not realistic or necessary and if I would actually receive these things I don’t think I’d be truly happy at all. So what makes you happy? For some that is a big question. I don’t think we really know what makes us truly happy, not with all the hub/bub that swirls all around us in our insanely fast paced lives. I’ve been working hard on finding what makes me happy. At first I thought it would be having my own place? Nope. Having my husband agree with everything I say? While I admit that’s a nice one what happens when I’m actually wrong and he’s right, it does happen you know. So that’s a no. What about great wealth? That would help out on getting us out of debt and then we could “buy, buy, buy” just all sorts of … yep you guessed it “crap”. Lets face it if you were born poor, lived poor then all of a sudden won the lotto your world flips upside down and you go a tad crazy on a lot of junk just because you can. So I’m sorry but great wealth would just not make me happy.

I live with two of the most negative, pessimistic, depressive, rude and angry people I know. I listen to their crap day in and day out. I’ve let it affect me so much before and in the last few weeks have determined with the help of God I’m just not going to let it get me down anymore. If they have a particular problem with me then I’ll face that problem head on with God right there to help me. Just the other day my husband apologised for not getting me out of here quicker, not making enough money to give me what all I want, reassuring me that he’s still working as hard as he can for me and our family. It brought tears to my eyes. Have I been ungrateful? Not supportive in his continual struggles for reaching the dreams I want? I prayed God change my heart. Make me more grateful, more patient, more excepting to change the things I can and to not stress about the things I can’t. I’ve added the bible verses that speak to me and the ones that my friends gave me for support. I hope they inspire you as much as me.

Galatians 6:9 NIV “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”

1 Corinthians 10:13 (KJV) “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.”

Matthew 6:9-13 (KJV) “9 After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.10 Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.11 Give us this day our daily bread.12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.”

Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV) ” Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight”

One Day Soon

you tell me “keep the faith”

you tell me “don’t lose hope”

you promise “it will happen”

you promise “one day soon”

i tell myself “i’ll keep the faith”

i tell myself “i won’t lose hope”

i reassure you “i know you’ll make it happen”

i reassure you “one day soon”

you tell me “don’t listen to thier lies”

you tell me “don’t trouble your heart with saddenss”

you promise “they will not destroy us”

you promise “one day soon”

i tell myself “i will only listen to your truths”

i tell myself “i will be happy in our love”

i reassure you “we will not be destroyed”

i reassure you “one day soon”

you tell me “i love you more than life itself”

you tell me “for you i sacrifice it all”

you promise “i will make your dreams come true”

you promise “one day soon”

i tell myself “i love you just as much and more”

i tell myself “i will sacrifice my dreams for you”

i reassure you “i believe you!”

i reassure you “one day soon”