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The Silent Christian

When I was little I remember as a family praying before we ate supper whether we were at home or out in public. I never thought much of it, it was how I was raised. I had family that would pray at all times for anything and everything, public or privately. Being raised in a huge christian family made it all normal.

When my parents divorced and my mom forgo the formality of religion I did sway from the Lord. As said in previous blogs I had my rebellious stage. I have since rededicated my life to the Lord and in doing so I’ve dove into God’s holy word. Some people read and hear but don’t truly see or listen. Preachers will teach what they nonchalantly know of what is “excepted”. I really have yet to hear one that goes against the grain of society.

If you truly read scripture you will see what I’m talking about. Jesus’s reason for being here was to lead us to God through him, true. He also was to help us form the true church, which I have yet to find. The church is us, not a building. Friends, fellowship, dedication to the Word, and our Father in heaven.

Praying is a big one, lots of us claim to do it but do we truly do it? Some have to pray out in public and in front of others for such a show as to claim, “oh look at me I’m a christian and i am praying” when Jesus clearly states in

Matthew 6:6 “But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.” (KJV)

He want us to pray in secret! Not for anyone else but HIM! Those “showy” christian that have to “prove” something by praying in public are going against all that’s taught. Your true witness is in your daily life to family and friends.

Do you cuss when you think no one else is around? Do you say bad things about family members because you “know” better? Do you think yourself better because you pray in public and go to church? All these are sin’s unto the Father and unfortunately are most christians. I do not shun them, I do not write this to speak badly of a group that so badly is striving to do good for God. I write this for a wake up call! How are we christians to reach the unbelieving when our paths are so crupted that it is them that can see it clear as day?

James 1:22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves. (KJV)

So many of us just go and hear the Word but never really apply it. As a kid were you ever told “do as I say not as I do”? I was and have said that to my boys as I’ve raised them. It wasn’t until my youngest told me “Mama, why am I not supposed to say bad words in front of girls and ladies when you say bad words?” Ouch! Out of the mouths of babes. He was right and I couldn’t get on to him for that. So from that day on even though anyone that knows me knows my favorite bad word was the “F” word I quit say them. Completely! Much like quitting smoking or drinking or any bad habit I did slip once in a while at first but now its been almost 6 months bad word free and even in my typing I won’t do it. You can ask my hubby that even in private I wont say a word. So what about when you’re raving mad? Well I’m human and some words might slip but even when I’m raving mad I still call upon God to silence my tounge.

Psalm 119:11 Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.

I pray daily, I read my bible daily, I devote all I do to the Lord.  I do not pray in public, I do not go to church regularly, I do not act like something I’m not. I truly believe with my whole heart and without conviction that I am doing what the Lord wants me to do, whether you approve or not it matters not. I’m doing my Lords work and that is all that matters.


Tawanda! Righter of Wrongs, Queen Beyond Compare!

Ever seen the movie “Fried Green Tomatoes”? This is one of my favorite lines from the movie. It’s a story about a housewife who is unhappy with her life befriends an old lady in a nursing home and is enthralled by the tales she tells of people she used to know. The movie is somewhat inspiring to me since I’m a “bored housewife” just trying to find my niche.

Last night I had the most wonderful get together with some very fine ladies. My Aunties and cousins, along with my sister-in-law. I married into this family over 20 years ago and have been welcome ever since. I didn’t feel welcome at first and I suppose that’s mostly the fault of my raising. My own blood family isn’t as welcoming or close so I really don’t know what that’s like. Over the years and especially the last 10 with my own kids I’ve opened up so much more and embraced the family I’m proud to call my own.

The housewife on FGT is played by Kathy Bates, I just love her in this. She is always trying to “fit in” and “be accepted” by everyone even her own husband. The old lady in the nursing home played by Jessica Tandy helps her see that its herself that’s she’s trying to be accepted by not everyone else. I agree. We are all to hard on ourselves and as we go through this life we are always trying to be accepted at school, work, home, or church we really are just trying to accept ourselves. Most of the time everyone else is completely fine with us, unbeknownst to us.

I had a hard time in school moving constantly from school to school, state to state. I was a military brat and that truly sucked. I never made “life long” friends and longed for that and still do, although I am very blessed now to have found some wonderful friends in my life.  I struggled for so long to look for the signs that I was excepted fully and at the slightest upset or cancellation I thought “oh guess I’m not”. That was never the case in most of the situations and I sabotaged most of my own friendships with my insecure thoughts of low self-esteem.

Life has a wonderful way of teaching you so much as you grow, year to year. I am almost 37 yrs old and just now except myself. It has taken so very long and it was a hurtful path I traveled, alone mostly. I’m very happy where I’m at now. Good friends, family by your side and really that’s all that matters. Not the number of each but that you have someone or a couple of someones that are truly there for you as you are for them.

Kathy Bates character finally accepts herself for who she is and with that self accepts opens up a whole new world for herself! I am not alone ever, even if everyone around me goes, God is always with me.

I can’t help but praise His name continually for all He’s done for me. In all my turmoil He was an ever-present strength and yes even when I didn’t want Him there. I laugh now about that because I have such a great relationship now with my Heavenly Father going to Him daily with my worries, dreams and praise. I’m completely okay with who I am in this life and focused on God’s will for my life, not because “it is written” but because He’s done so very much for me. Just like family, true family that’s there for you day in and day out for all your needs unconditionally and just because they are like that for you, you in turn want to do that for them.

http://www.epinions.com/review/mvie_mu-1038305/mvie-review-2DF0-8887013-38A7144D-prod5   “I believe that the moral of the story lies, however in TAWANDA & THE BEE CHARMER.  From the first time you hear one of the women use the word TAWANDA, it seems to be a cry of liberation.  It seems to be equated with being self-sufficient, having worth without defining it by virtue of a man, what you do, how you act; but who you are and how you feel about yourself. TAWANDA! I mean, shouting the word itself almost feels liberating.

The BEE CHARMER, in my opinion, is a metaphor for facing your fears and coming out not only unscathed but better for the experience.”

So get liberated! No matter your status, station, job, grade pay, color, race, family connections or lack there of FREE YOURSELF!